I've ALWAYS wanted to go away, far away, for college. And I always considered my near and dear ones, and how unselfish people give up their dreams to stay with the people they love. But I figured it was too soon in my life to make those kind of huge choices: stay or go for it.
I guess I just never considered MY side... you know, the part where I'm left alone too. I don't want to say I have regrets, it's too soon for that too. But this is the first hour being truly ALONE. I never understood alone-ness, not till now. There is quite literally no familiar face that I can sit down in front of and feel understood when I talk to. Damn, I have to build these incredibly trusting relationships all over and get a good education at the same time!
Life is exhausting. But I chose this. I need to keep reminding myself of that, cause now, if I fail I'm failing myself. I also need to keep myself excited for this. If I'm energetic and pumped for it, it'll be soo much easier to be successful. Constant prayer and self discipline are going to be my best friends for the next six months.